just woke up from a 3 hour nap 
i got like 5 pages read before i fell dead asleep
4:59 PM it almost scared me today
5:00 PM that when i joked to my mom about maybe marrying dan in a few years if he needs a green card, she didn’t seem to be at all against the idea as foolish and silly–in fact, she kind of seemed for it
5:01 PM which makes me feel nervous, because it’s like knowing i want something that i shouldn’t want, and then getting permission to have it…
it would almost have been easier if she had dismissed the idea outright, because then i kind of would have, too
5:02 PM but, haha, i will cross that bridge when i come to it. dan would have to know about my plan before it even became a possibility, heh
5:03 PM she also let on that, while she’s not entirely ready yet, she is almost starting to think about grand children
yay!!
5:04 PM and sorry–i know you didn’t ask to hear any of that…i’m just kind of lonely sitting here and i needed to say what my brain was thinking
5:05 PM i haven’t talked to humans in like hours
